Blog 28/02/2014

If I ever happen to like a friend, she would continue to hold a special position in my heart even if our friendship has faded away long ago. I realized that while I was listening to a song, "Сойти с Ума (Soyti s Uma)". That song was my favourite song when I was (near-to-best) friends with a girl. Even though I rarely see her now, and only have three or four words to say to her, I realized that she still holds the special position in my heart.

It's not like I can forget people that easily, unless I go into some kind of coma and wake up with a brand-new brain. How I wish that I could. Even after ten, twenty or even fifty years, when I have vanished from others' minds, I will be the one having flashbacks of time spent with others. Any person, friend or enemy, close or far, will occupy part of my brain for a period of time. I don't want to admit it, but it's the truth that I am extremely concerned about others' feelings towards me and my actions, and I tend to worry too much.

Obviously there are people who are more memorable, such as my family members and people who share many traits with me and understand me, since there aren't many. Even if a person doesn't fit in any of the two catagories above, chances are that I remember you perfectly even though I'm not aware of it and thinking of you every second.

What I say is that friendships and relationships are temporary and do fade away, but they become history and become part of who you are. And in my case, no matter significant or not, take up a part of my brain and my past days. So don't go thinking that you no longer matter to me.