small conclusions that seem big

When I joined the 48G fandom, one of the first songs I came across was Oogoe Diamond, one of their older songs. It was the first single to feature members from sister groups, and Matsui Jurina-san from SKE48 served as the centre of the song.

At the time of Oogoe Diamond, she was probably around 13. She was the first member I admired in the whole 48G. She was very skilled at dancing. I was stunned by how sharp and strong her dance moves were. The dance moves were difficult,  and she stood out not only because she was at the very front, but because she danced with so much strength and put all her effort into it. She was so young and inexperienced compared to the senpais around her, but she did the best, I thought.

My achievements as a 13-year-old girl, when compared to Jurina-san, isn't even the slightest bit significant. It's not that I want to become a good dancer like her, but that I really want to give all I have to do something that I can be proud of. Just like Oogoe Diamond is Jurina-san's pride, I want to work hard so I can have something as my pride. It doesn't have to be something as significant as hers, but I definitely want to give my all.

The new academic year will be starting very soon, and I want to put in all my effort. Instead of wanting to enjoy myself all the time, maybe I should make sure I work my hardest so I do not have to regret anything. Hopefully, I will achieve the most within my ability next year.

Seeing such a Jurina-san really makes me work a lot harder. That is the conclusion I came up with after watching her solo version of Oogoe Diamond (and crying along).