Blog 22/05/2014
I'll be doing a birthday reflection today, since my birthday was 4 days ago but I haven't done anything on here yet. So yeah, to everyone who has remembered my birthday, I must bow with all my heart to express my gratitude. My gratitude is spilling violently like a strong waterfall (I think I just failed there).
This year, as I turned into a thirteen-year-old, a.k.a. a teen, I became extremely old. I made pathetic rants about feeling like an extreme old hag, and I still feel so. When I think about the fact that my childhood has become history, I feel a strong feeling of regret for not spending those years wisely. Being a teen right now, which is no longer a thing to be proud of, reminds me of how I wasted my childhood. However, I know that I cannot change this fact, so on the bright side, I focus on the fact that I will have more freedom.
Miraculously, a lot of people gave me presents this year, which is a rare case that has never happened before. I have to thank those people by virtually bowing once more. I shall thank them here, even though they'll never read it. Thanks to my neighbour who gave me a pair of superb purple earphones. Arigato to my fellow AKB48 fans/wotas who gave me an Iiwake Maybe postcard and an Oya-san shashin. And most of all thanks to a certain senpai who set foot in our kouhai classroom just to give me a handmade pink card. I nearly burst into tears of joy, seriously. It surprised me how gifts just came one after one this year.
Furthermore, there were a lot of birthday messages on Facebook, Instagram and Whatsapp. Instead of the random short "happy birthday"s like previous years, there were longer messages that contained real meaningful content on my wall. A few people posted pictures and wished me happy birthday, and a wota in my class made a 15-second Flipagram video with AKB48's Namida Surprise!. Many people sent me birthday messages on Whatsapp, even the ones who weren't really close with me did so, so I was pretty shocked.
It's like, all of a sudden, you're showered with happiness from other people. For someone like me, whose birthdays have never been spectacular, it was an incredibly surreal experience. I hope I was able to smile and thank everyone whole-heartedly, for honouring my birthday. When people ask me what I want for my birthday, I always say, "anything is fine as long as you all exist on earth." I really don't expect anyone to do anything, so the attention I received on my birthday made me feel overwhelmed. I can definitely feel the love from everyone, and I promise to return it to all of you.
In the future, I wish to face everyday with a smile, not one that exists just for the sake of seeming positive, but one that is on my face because I am honestly happy. I also aim to love everyone as much as I can. For one last time, allow me to thank everyone for taking care of me and tolerating my ravenous acts. I am thankful to an extent that I can just cry now. Hahaha~ minna-san, hontoni arigatto!!!! Please continue to look after me. I have hope for the future.
This year, as I turned into a thirteen-year-old, a.k.a. a teen, I became extremely old. I made pathetic rants about feeling like an extreme old hag, and I still feel so. When I think about the fact that my childhood has become history, I feel a strong feeling of regret for not spending those years wisely. Being a teen right now, which is no longer a thing to be proud of, reminds me of how I wasted my childhood. However, I know that I cannot change this fact, so on the bright side, I focus on the fact that I will have more freedom.
Miraculously, a lot of people gave me presents this year, which is a rare case that has never happened before. I have to thank those people by virtually bowing once more. I shall thank them here, even though they'll never read it. Thanks to my neighbour who gave me a pair of superb purple earphones. Arigato to my fellow AKB48 fans/wotas who gave me an Iiwake Maybe postcard and an Oya-san shashin. And most of all thanks to a certain senpai who set foot in our kouhai classroom just to give me a handmade pink card. I nearly burst into tears of joy, seriously. It surprised me how gifts just came one after one this year.
Furthermore, there were a lot of birthday messages on Facebook, Instagram and Whatsapp. Instead of the random short "happy birthday"s like previous years, there were longer messages that contained real meaningful content on my wall. A few people posted pictures and wished me happy birthday, and a wota in my class made a 15-second Flipagram video with AKB48's Namida Surprise!. Many people sent me birthday messages on Whatsapp, even the ones who weren't really close with me did so, so I was pretty shocked.
It's like, all of a sudden, you're showered with happiness from other people. For someone like me, whose birthdays have never been spectacular, it was an incredibly surreal experience. I hope I was able to smile and thank everyone whole-heartedly, for honouring my birthday. When people ask me what I want for my birthday, I always say, "anything is fine as long as you all exist on earth." I really don't expect anyone to do anything, so the attention I received on my birthday made me feel overwhelmed. I can definitely feel the love from everyone, and I promise to return it to all of you.
In the future, I wish to face everyday with a smile, not one that exists just for the sake of seeming positive, but one that is on my face because I am honestly happy. I also aim to love everyone as much as I can. For one last time, allow me to thank everyone for taking care of me and tolerating my ravenous acts. I am thankful to an extent that I can just cry now. Hahaha~ minna-san, hontoni arigatto!!!! Please continue to look after me. I have hope for the future.
Comments
Post a Comment
let's all type some crap.