Blog 07/03/2014

Here comes another boring post about a widely talked about topic: is a career more important or a family? My relatives are big fans of families, and ever since my birth, they have been brainwashing me with the theory that big families with lots of kids are excellent. However, brainwashing never affected me and I never changed my opinion on this. To me, a career is more important.

Some people, like Komatsu Nana from NANA, want to live a life just being a good wife. However, it's not my idea of a fruitful life. Everyone only has one life, and that life is not to be wasted. I'm disgusted by the idea that a lifetime is to be wasted by being a man's servant or something. That way, I would never be proud of my achievements. Spending youth for a loved one sounds pathetic to me, instead I would prefer to make myself successful at a job and have something to be proud of.

As my mother always says, when I grow old, I'll be lonely if I don't find a lifelong partner. But the thing is, no matter how scary this seems, it's at least five times better than spending time for love. I might as well cry all day and make both my eyes swell, watch TV all day and feel bored, but I will not regret my choice to spend my youth persuing a career. I could be proud of the things I achieved, it makes me feel like I worth more in a way. If I were to indulge myself in love and lust, I would feel stupid for doing it and regret my desicions.

Loneliness is nothing compared to achieving nothing. You might say that this statement is ridiculous, you might say that if I find a good man (which in my opinion, none can be better than a job I love), I would change my mind. Don't say that because it's my nature. I take pride in achieving things for myself, and for god, but not for the sake of others. Don't try to scare me with your invincible knowledge of love, because it is not what I long for.

I'm willing to go through every cold winter myself, even if I were to shiver alone in agony. The fact that I achieved things I wanted would make me feel powerful, and when I feel that way, I can endure many hardships and not give up easily. I'll feel stupid if I were to be protected by some man, if I couldn't conquer things on my own. Every human, in a way, is self-centered, but I am an extreme case.

Don't tell me that I will regret or change my mind. To feel strong, to feel powerful, to reach my dreams, I am willing to take all consequences. I won't look back, and don't you ever talk to me with such family concepts again.