"that's what I call business"

It's just the beginning of this current form two year, but seriously, I can't tell you confidently that I'll be able to get through this year. Even though I tend to complain and worry too much every year, then realizing the next year that the previous wasn't even the slightest bit difficult.

"This year is seriously a busy one," fellow form twos would grumble, "last year wasn't even that hard, I'd say."

Exactly. For whatever reasons, I've been under so much stress ever since the start of this school year. Things have become so much more difficult, with so many things to do each day. On many days I can't even have lunch, let alone a small lunch, so much that I've been used to it.

But really, I've not given up yet. Yes, it's difficult, but I want to believe that I can still do a lot better. Most of the times my failure is because of my terrible and unsettled mental state, because I have too big of a fear that I won't be able to do things properly.

Sometimes it's frustrating, not being able to do things. Especially for a perfectionist like me, who never forgives herself for her faults. Adding on to the pressure of not being able to complete things, it makes things a lot worse.