Blog 12/11/2013
Oh now for another day :) salute is finally out :')
So today was another one of those happy days, another day of seeking genuine happiness. We had a volleyball match with another house which was basically the strongest one, and we were pretty mortified. I had my mind programmed to lose but then halfway we did better. And then due to carelessness we had to have deuce, and the people suddenly became so much stronger and we... um... didn't win. I was fuming so bad because i thought it was so close. I was so angry.
So then after History lesson, the teacher gave us a few minutes to go out to breathe some fresh air. It was a dark rainy day but it was so breezy. So we went stretching outside, facing the wind, and it was such a happy feeling (': All of the worries, all of the sadness, just seemed to disappear for once. This was the second time I felt genuine, pure happiness. Other happiness was just a way to feel happy, when I was feeling that "happiness" I was still worrying.
The third genuine happiness was also found today :) did I mention I was always an emo girl and I could never feel happy? Sometimes I'd rather isolate myself and then sometimes I simply couldnt be isolated. This third source of pure happiness was when I pinched this certain girl in my grade. No one agreed that she was cute but to me she was. Every time I pinch her it just feels as if all the worries are gone, and it seems as if I can feel her happiness and warmth and it is just so good. I feel like I might as well open up to her.
Ahaha so this is all for the blog today, hope you guys had a nice day :)
So today was another one of those happy days, another day of seeking genuine happiness. We had a volleyball match with another house which was basically the strongest one, and we were pretty mortified. I had my mind programmed to lose but then halfway we did better. And then due to carelessness we had to have deuce, and the people suddenly became so much stronger and we... um... didn't win. I was fuming so bad because i thought it was so close. I was so angry.
So then after History lesson, the teacher gave us a few minutes to go out to breathe some fresh air. It was a dark rainy day but it was so breezy. So we went stretching outside, facing the wind, and it was such a happy feeling (': All of the worries, all of the sadness, just seemed to disappear for once. This was the second time I felt genuine, pure happiness. Other happiness was just a way to feel happy, when I was feeling that "happiness" I was still worrying.
The third genuine happiness was also found today :) did I mention I was always an emo girl and I could never feel happy? Sometimes I'd rather isolate myself and then sometimes I simply couldnt be isolated. This third source of pure happiness was when I pinched this certain girl in my grade. No one agreed that she was cute but to me she was. Every time I pinch her it just feels as if all the worries are gone, and it seems as if I can feel her happiness and warmth and it is just so good. I feel like I might as well open up to her.
Ahaha so this is all for the blog today, hope you guys had a nice day :)
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