Blog 15/11/2013

Hiya. I actually was too busy to type a blogpost yesterday, and i do not plan to make it up either ;) so november is officially half-over, cheers :)))

I cannot stand it anymore. Apparently there was this beautiful girl in my school, and I pointed out to a few "trusted" friends and got betrayed :/ And i'm fuming right now. Now whenever she and her friends see me, they laugh and I feel like all my pride has been taken away. Apparently they see me as this silly weird girl, which I am not exactly like that. Everytime they also stare at me and exchange expressions with each other, it just makes me want to explode.

Whenever I pass through (that girl's) classroom, people give me some weird stares. Sometimes I have the intention to call them bitches, but I'm scared it will make it worse. Sometimes it just feels so hopeless and the problems just come one after another. Right now I probably can do nothing but to wait silently for this to die out, and whenever I see her just pretend that I cannot see her.

I hope this depressing state will be over ASAP, it just drains my mind most of the time, being perceived as someone that I am not. When I said that she was pretty, I never meant to get laughed at. And for those who actually betrayed me and told others, or even worse, that girl herself, I am not satisfied with you, and you really have to know how much this hurts me. I hope that someday this will be over and this can, hopefully, silently and secretly fade into history.