Blog 18/11/2013

Today I spent the entire day pondering, basically being unproductive. A question came up: what is the definition of a complicated person? Someone who thinks in complicated ways? Someone who makes simple things complicated? Someone who's hard to understand? Then I made up my mind to discuss this on a blogpost. Wasted another day on the topic of complication.

By the way, I have recently renovated my blog. I chose a new template and changed everything. In case you are not aware of it (which is probably impossible), the whole mood has changed.

So what's the definition of a complicated person after all? There probably aren't fixed characteristics of people that catagorize them as "complicated". To me complicated is the three kinds listed in the first paragraph. Some people, in fact, are so complicated that you can't even tell that they are so complicated. I find myself addicted to complicated things, and that is why I am a self-proclaimed complicated person. Many people have told me that they didn't know that I had so many thoughts and observations until I started to open up about them. Never, I repeat, underestimate one's thoughts and emotions.

So some time ago I came across this girl at school. She was pretty outgoing and cheerful, and she was willing to share a lot about her past and her thoughts with new friends (um, like me). She was the last person that I'd put into the complicated people list, but little did I know. I thought she was this simple and innocent little girl until she said something that changed my mind forever. One day I was having some free time and I spent the time talking to her. When we were discussing about another girl, I was amazed by the observations she had about the girl. Afterwards she also talked about her experiences from the past about her observation about complicated things. Needless to say she was complicated beyond her years.

And what made it worse? She always seemed to be hiding something. At most times she was very introverted. Many people have told me about her weird behaviour, and there was this chinese saying meaning "three people saying the same thing makes it true", so I was mortified. I felt like I really wanted to trust her, to believe that all her actions and words were genuine, but then all these going on around me were doing nothing but to make me suspect even more.

I trusted her for once, but then if she was able to see all these, would she be able to see that I was suspecting her? If I were not to suspect, which of her words were true? I have no idea...