Blog 16/11/2013

So I had some weird random thoughts on something. To begin with, let's keep the tradition, happy sixteenth of november! Now about what I'm going to blab about today, it's about schoolgirl crushes or basically just looking up to senior form girls -- too much.

I have this neighbour at school who is part of my school's drama ensemble. She somehow fangirls over the chairlady, thinks that she is perfect and is sad that the chairlady does not notice her. She was depressed. Actually the ensemble is huge, and my neighbour is a newcomer, so how was she supposed to be noticed by the chairlady? And it is very sad, I know, I understand.

So apparently I've had my fair share of that too. There was this particular girl in the volleyball team who was so talented and agile. And she was very pretty too, to me everything she did just seemed to be flawless. And I wanted to be friends with her so badly, but it seemed so hopeless. Whenever she opens her mouth to speak, especially me, I get chills and start to fangirl. Afterwards I got over it and I understood that those people were probably never going to be close with me.

The explanation to these "crushes" is simple: they are so far away, seem so perfect, and at the same time seem so unreachable, which makes people want them even more. It's fine to look up to them as idols, but if you want to be close friends with them, better think again because being close friends mean seeing another not-so-flawless side of that person.

Cheers x